How to Feel Better About Money Decisions That Don’t Go As Planned
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How do you feel when you ‘waste’ money?
When I was younger, I wanted every dollar to have a purpose. Growing up poor, I had a scarcity mindset. I would get angry over $20 and feel sick in the pit of my stomach. I tried not to waste money, but it kept happening no matter what I did.
Once I realized I couldn’t prevent it from ever happening again, I decided to stop being angry about it. It wasn’t worth making myself sick, and I realized it kept happening no matter how ‘smart’ I tried to be.
I accepted that sometimes things happened with money that I didn’t like.
Although I wasn’t conscious of it at the time, two important things happened here.
I decided to stop being angry about it, so I wasn’t. Deciding is a powerful energy!
And, I realized something was happening that disregarded my intentions. Money has a flow of its own!
I got over feeling bad about small amounts of money, but what about the larger sums?
Can you relate to any of these scenarios?
Purchasing a package filled with deliverables and receiving much less than was expected.
Thousands spent getting help with a project and not being where you thought you’d be.
The coaching program that costs as much as a great used car that you don’t even want to talk about.
Experiences like this can mess with our heads because gifts come with them even though things didn’t turn out ideally. We evolve and much more. Some of the gifts I received were priceless. They changed me.
Last year, I entered into a contract that included coaching and several concrete deliverables, including a website that never got built. My conscious mind expected all that was promised to be delivered. I was upset about the website and disappointed that things did not go as planned.
And the coaching was extraordinary!
This person interviewed me in-depth about my work with my clients and helped me embody it in a way I hadn’t done before. They reflected back to me the magic happening in the one-on-one forecasting sessions with my clients and helped me understand that I was conducting the energy that allowed for the healing to take place. And I knew that to be true.
I have witnessed my clients healing as they improve their relationship with money by showing up month after month to engage with their numbers.
What is the coaching I received as part of this unfulfilled contract worth? To me, it was invaluable.
And, I learned some lessons about working with others that have helped me become a more assertive businesswoman.
But what about the website!
To find peace, the energy spent reframing these situations that we might consider as having ‘wasted’ money is exhausting.
Last week, something happened to let me know how much my money consciousness had changed.
I was in my garden, contemplating this topic. Mixed in with the bird’s song, I heard, “What if it has nothing to do with you at all?"
I was shocked by this expansive thought, and then I felt the lightness of freedom.
You mean, “Money can flow through me to someone else, and it has nothing to do with me?”
As the wind blew around me, I began to sense corridors of flow and money as energy going everywhere it needed to go. I’ve heard people say that money is just energy, and I can get behind that because everything is made of energy, but to step aside and let the money flow?
What an act of trust and surrender.
My mind wants to judge me for paying for something I didn’t receive. But, I can look at value differently.
I’ve learned to process these situations more quickly by going into my heart and accepting that sometimes money does what it needs to do.
Sometimes the value received doesn’t come in the way we expect it to. Sometimes, it will go where it wants no matter what we do. It happens, and that doesn’t make us bad at money.
So, in my backyard. At that moment, I put up my hands and said:
“I am liberated.”
“I permit myself to let go of ownership, blame, and every bad feeling and stop punishing myself over money.”
Dr. Joe Dispenza says, “The magnetic field always endorses who we are being,” and if we are beating ourselves up and telling ourselves we are bad at money, then we will be.
Let’s speak to ourselves kindly.
“It’s a practice of watching our thoughts and words.”
If money is an area of challenge for you, then be extra kind to yourself here.
Whether you agree that money is energy and it does what it wants sometimes, or you think it’s a bunch of B.S., I’d love it if you’d reply and let me know.
Love, Carol
